I’ve met a lot of people in the course of the past few years, most of whom my studies and blogging on Laced Ivory have brought to me. Not many people know the real me, and in fact, those who do, I can count with one hand. In reflecting the past year and some significant events in my life, perhaps it’s a way for me to say, “Hey, here’s how you can get to know me in all honesty – and I would like you to.”
Who am I?
By nature, I’m an introvert but not the kind that people usually expect. I’m more of an observer than an extrovert but I participate by contributing in ways that are seemingly lacking in a social setting. I love bravely, live forgivingly – and I absolutely hate liars. I’m a typical Aquarius, but if you know the traits of one, you’ll know that there isn’t such a thing as a typical Aquarius. I choose who I befriend, who I hold close to my heart, who I allow myself to be vulnerable with. I also choose who I don’t bother about and will probably never think of again the rest of my life. I make decisions by asking myself the same concluding question every time: “Will I regret this later?” If I don’t know the answer to that, I go with my instinct. I don’t do blame – it’s a great waste of time.
I’m always moving forward but I carry my past with me all the time. I like challenges, sometimes a bit too much so that I suffer. But I also believe that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. If it does kill you, you die anyway, and your journey may continue or not. Death does not scare me – not having lived before I die does. Which is why I choose to live each day positively. I choose to be happy because life on earth is but transient. I believe everything in life happens for a reason, whether I know what that reason is or not. And it doesn’t matter whether I know this cause, because the universe is so much greater than what I – or anyone – can ever perceive it to be, that my life and everything in or around it, is simply part of a grander picture. To a microbe, a planet is unimaginable. To a human, so is the universe.