One of the things I’ve learnt in the months passed is this: Life happens for you, not to you. And it’s important to go with the flow instead of trying to control everything that’s beyond your control. So, life happened to me. And it’s amazing. It has been quite the ride – it always has – but I love adventures!
As you’re reading this, we’ve told everyone who needs to know that I am pregnant. You read that right! So, major news, but I honestly don’t know how I feel about it. Physically though, I have TONS to say.
The first trimester was horrible but I think my symptoms were considered mild. I had almost no nausea or morning sickness and I didn’t feel any emotional changes.
What I did feel, apart from the physical bloating, was fatigue. I was tired all day long despite having had a long night’s rest and no crazy activity during the day. At first, I thought it was the flu, which I was suffering from the previous week. But the fatigue didn’t go away and continued the following week, even though my flu had dissipated. I had no energy to get properly dressed to head out. My stomach also started getting pretty gassy. I turned slightly flabby around the tummy area, despite only missing Pilates for 2 weeks. Something just felt off.
Anyway, fast forward to today and I’m now in the second trimester. We’ve had our second gynae visit. We still don’t know if it’s a boy or girl and we can’t wait to find out in a couple of weeks when our blood screening test results come back.
The bloating has shifted and I don’t need the loo as often. I’m no longer tired all the time. I have to eat more often but each time I can only take in so much (have difficulty finishing even a normal bowl of noodles). My tummy area is starting to itch and I can no longer fit into most of my clothes (going to have to do some shopping). More importantly? I’m happy.
I have many thoughts about being a mum, but I think the most significant one of all is that I want to pursue my career (and have an amazing life) with even more fervour/vigour then before. To be honest, I still don’t see myself as a mum kind of person. I feel more like a normal person who somehow also has a tiny person, if that even makes sense. I’m not sure if I’m ready to commit full-time to this little human bean – but I know I won’t give up travelling, exploring new places and hanging out with my single, baby-free friends.
Current pet peeves:
- I can’t eat sashimi and anything with fish roe in it – and I love sashimi/mentaiko.
- My tummy feels swollen all the time and I can’t fit into some of my clothes.
- I have to shop for maternity clothes, something which I find to be a chore and a waste of money because I won’t wear them again when I’m no longer pregnant.
- Scrape that. I have to shop for maternity everything. Clothes, pillow, lingerie, activewear, manicure stickers, body oil…
- Everyone else seems more excited about my pregnancy than me.
- I have to shop for baby stuff, which is basically stuff I don’t want but need. LOL.
- We have to move to a bigger apartment.
Current plus points:
- I’m limiting my coffee intake to 1 cup a day, if I even drink at all.
- I don’t need to explain myself when I turn down alcohol.
- I feel like my baby is helping me to detox physically and emotionally.
- I’m pregnant so I win. 😂
I’m not sure how much I’ll be blogging about this journey, but if you have any questions, feel free to drop me a message on IG (@roxannechia_sg).